Hej. c:
Meine Englisch-Lehrerin hat mich für meinen Aufsatz gelobt, den ich für eine Lk geschrieben habe und meinte, ich könne mir jederzeit eine gute Note durch einen Text verdienen. Jetzt habe ich da was Kleines geschrieben und wollte mir natürlich eine zweite Meinung einholen!
Es ist noch nicht Kontrolle von meiner Lehrerin gelesen worden, also können da seeeehr viele Fehler drin sein.
Sometimes I only feel empty. Like I'm not able to feel anything. Like there's a big hole inside me and I can't fill it with happiness or other feelings.
And when I don't feel anything, I begin to think about things; about things, I can't change. For example the way I look like. I can't change how tall I am or the colour of my eyes. Grey. I hate this colour. It's not even a colour. It means nothing. Brown for example exudes so much intensity and warmth, but grey is only grey. No more, no less. That's a sobering fact.
But except these superficialities there is so much more I have no effect on. Even if I wanted to, I couldn't help all poor children in this world or couldn't stop war. Because they wouldn't listen; I'm only a child. Some more I would like to modify.
People want me to do things children at my age usually do, but I will never be more than this stupid child. Because of my age. Because of the sound of my childish voice. Because of the way I articulate. All these things limit myself to what I'm supposed to be; a child. No more, no less.
I should be happy about this; but it feels like someone built a barrier inside my head and I'm not able to think beyond this. This “barrier” seems to yell:”You're only a kid! You have to act like a kid! Stop complaining. Even if I weren't in your head, you would be no good for the 'adult world'.”
The 'adult world' is a world full of people, who lost their fantasy and imagination years ago. And the barrier is right; I would be no good for this world, because I don't want to be part of this world of ignorance and lies.
I am no longer a kid, but I'm not by a long shot an adult. So what am I?
Wie findet ihr es?
Alles Liebe
Anni c: